All Falls Down: The Rock Bottom Hollow Man Effect

Lies, liars, lying. I hate them all equally. But what can I do? The world is full of them. I just got through with a bit of an adventure tonight. I'll spare you the dull details and stick to the important stuff. Now, don't get me confused with a gossip or a drama king because I actually see blogging as a therapeutic outlet. Seriously though, I feel better already. If I wasn't then this entry in itself would not exist because just one our ago I wanted to smash and destroy any and everything in sight (yes including my precious Tiffany [Tiffany is the name of my computer for anyone's information]). Back to the point though, Lies, Liars, and lying are the only things in the world that could destroy me. I feel that they honestly will lead me to my death somehow. And I don't even mean in any abstract sort of Freudian way but in true vivid physical manifestation of something that could harm me beyond just simply killing me but actually breaking me.
I have lived most of my life without fear. I stood up to bullies, dogs, girls, and even god himself when I was younger. I believed that me being a part of the world, the world could not itself harm me. For a while that is what I truly believed. It almost became a creed I lived by. But over time I began to develop FEAR. I was never afraid of anything. I honestly believed that I was a super hero that could fly and everything (believe me I tried) but the older I got the more odvious it became that I did have FEAR. I still wasn't afraid of the bullies, dogs, or god, maybe a few girls, but I had a few things that could break me down. Lies was the biggest fear of mine. I discovered one day that the world was full of them. Santa Claus; The Easter Bunny; The Tooth Fairy; Where babies come from; Why the earth turns; Tupac being dead; and so on and so on.
So now we've set the stage so lets get to the point. I messed up. Maybe one day I will tell the full story. But it has to deal with lies and relationships. They just don't mix.
That is all.